I am, I am not (Original Poetry)

 

I am not just what you think my body looks like 

I am all of the things my body is capable of doing

Sure, slouching on the couch and binge watching TV

But also of dancing my little heart out, limitless on joy


I am not your critical and ruthless judgment of my looks

I am the joy I feel when I can smile at myself in the mirror

I am the days when I can't help smiling because I'm so happy

Why must you insist on making me the tears that just won't stop? 


I am not your 'well-intended' words that echo my worst insecurities

I am not the things you tell me that you think are for my own good

I am the affirmations of who I am that tell me I am worth being here

I am the tiny spark of joy that I can find in the littlest things 


I am not the version of me that you persist on perceiving in your mind

I am not any less than who I am just because I'm not your perfect person

The things you think I 'lack' or have 'too much of' do not make me any less 

I am not your ideal person, nor do I ever hope to be (nor can I, ever) 


I am not any less worthy of being a person because you think I'm not perfect 

I am not the lack you perceive in me nor am I too much of myself and who I am

I am just trying to live my life, finding my happiness wherever I can 

I am not the hate you make myself sow the seeds of in my own heart 

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